Headache update

I went to a headache class provided by Kaiser today. I learned some of the triggers of headaches and ways to prevent and treat headaches without medication. I gotta go get some salonpas and peppermint oil and see if those work for me. All I know it those salonpas smell like the best piece of mint gum ever. If I didn’t know what it was I might have popped it in my mouth right then. lol And the peppermint oil seems like a good idea too. I have chewed gum in the past to help provide some headache relief, but the act of moving my jaw sometimes contributes to the headache. The peppermint oil goes right in the nose to help cool and loosen muscles and relax everything in the head and face region. I’ll have to give it a try. We were also given a list of foods to avoid and use with caution that may also be triggers of headaches. There are some things on that list I didn’t expect. Aged cheeses are on the avoid list while milk is actually fine. ALL nuts are on the avoid list (dang). And MSG is only of the precautionary list, not avoidable all together.

This class was the prerequisite to having an appointment with the neurologist. I will get a call in the next few days to schedule an appointment with the neurologist. She will help me discover the specific triggers I have and find a combination of behavioral, cognitive, medicinal and topical treatments to better manage and deal with my headaches. I of course need to be realistic and realize that not all headaches will be eliminated but reducing the frequency and severity will be the key focus.

Gone (hopefully) are the days of puking my guts out at work and having vacations interrupted by migraines. I’m glad I called patient services and went to see Mr. Hicks (a PA that works in Colton). My primary physician was a major tool and told me “there’s no known cause to migraines and all we can do is give you medicine to help you manage the pain.” Apparently this guy needs to go back to med school and shred his M.D. from Doctors-R-Us. Thank you Mr. Hicks for having more brains and experience than that so called Doctor.

I'm baaaaaaack!

I have iPhone access to my blog now so I will try to edit more often. I appologise for being so absent. I don't have long right now but I will post an update of my life soon.

On Weddings, and the life thereafter

I wrote this earlier today then lost my connection and was not able to post

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WOW! I don't blog enough! Three months since my last update. I am married now as of 16 days ago and loving every minute of it. My wedding was PERFECT and made so by all the people I love who were there supporting me every step of the way.

It's strange, the feeling of comfort, sustainability and consistency. A good kind of strange. I know I am being taken care of, and that he is always going to be there no matter what we go through. He is a righteous Godly man who loves me and loves his God. Everything he does he thinks of me before he does it. I am important to him, AND I LOVE IT!! I cook and clean and make the home comfortable for him, AND I LOVE THAT TOO!! In just two weeks and a couple days I have learned more about him AND more about myself than I ever knew. It's Amazing!

I am going to attend a wedding of a friend from school today. I used to go to weddings feeling anxious and a tiny twinge of jealousy. I wanted to be the one in that white dress making a promise for forever. I was always excited for my friends getting married, but my thoughts wandered off to the future. My mind was on my who when and where. Even when I finally discovered the who the when was always haunting me. I wanted to be his wife so badly, but I knew I had to be patient and wait for the right time...for Gods time!

Now that I have said my vows and began my life with my amazing husband I am going to this wedding 100% joyful and praising God for his goodness. I am so excited for my friend as it will be her turn to wear the white dress and make a forever promise. I am not distracted by feelings of jealousy but rather I am thinking about all the emotions rushing through her head right now. About the adjustment she will be going through (as I am still going through it). About the awkward next couple of days which will be spent learning each others living habits. About how HAPPY they are and are going to be despite what life throws them. I know I am no pro when it comes to married life...Not even close...We're practically still honeymooning. But its a wonder to see this from a different perspective, from this side of the veil, from (barely) experienced eyes. All my best to her and her very soon-to-be husband. I wish them all the best and as much joy, blessings, love happiness as I would wish for my own young marriage

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It was absolutely beautiful and I am so happy for her. I know that she and her husband are going to be so happy and with the support they have behind them in the form of their family and close friends and more importantly their faith in their Savior Jesus Christ as the foundation, they are going to be forever in each other arms and in the deepest kind of love only The True God can give.

I'M ENGAGED!!!!!

The Desires of My Heart

I desire with all my heart to serve my God in whatever capacity He has planned for me.

I desire with everything in me to spend one wonderful lifetime in the arms of my beloved, forever in love and cherishing the miracle God has given me.

I desire so much to be back in the country that my heart breaks for, with the people I have fallen in love with.

I desire 'til the end of my days to make an impact, even if my name is not given credit.

I desire with all my being to keep in touch with and continue to love my family who has shaped me into who I am today.

I desire strongly to become a wise old woman who can teach and train the following generations, and give them the same desires I have been given.

I desire that others may see my desires and let that become my identity. That I may be known by the good I am capable of, not the bad that I unfortunately commit more often.

I desire that the desires of my heart be met and I may live live to fullest as defined by my walk and relationship with my Creator, Savior, Jesus Christ!

To Love, and Be Loved!

To feel those strong warm arms wrap around me and make me feel as if the world cannot harm me
To look into those deep eyes and read everything he is feeling for me
To read the note written by his hand, expressing all the love he holds in his heart for me
To hear that voice that makes my heart jump when he speaks just a word to me
To know that, though the distance is far, his love stretches and fills the void from him to me

I love him more than words can express, and though it's far, and we have to wait so long, his affection is ever with me and all I can do is dream of his face and wait for the day I see him again!

Be Still

Tuesday afternoon my Grandpa passed away, somewhat unexpectedly. His diabetes had gotten pretty bad, but no one really knew it was his time yet. I wish I could say he was in a better place, and that he was out of misery but unfortunately he’s not. My grandpa did not believe in Christ. In fact he was a devout atheist and figured all Christians, including his own children or grandchildren, were a bunch of wacko crazies. I have been thinking about this a lot in the past couple of days. I didn’t really know him well. He was family and I loved him, but I never got a chance to really get close to him. He was always angry at life and the world. I didn’t even cry when I heard he was dead. I was shocked, but no tears. Then my dad mentioned the whole unsaved thing, and that’s when I started to get a bit choked up. How miserable must he be right now? How badly he must be wishing he had listened to his Christian children. Eternal separation from God is a scary thought, and an unhappy end. My Grandma Betty (his ex wife) is saved and I can rest knowing that when she leaves us, she will be running into the hands of her beloved savior. But my Grandma Mary, the wife he left behind, is still unsaved. Will she ever come to know the love of Christ? Will she find comfort in this tragedy through the temporary things of this world, or the everlasting love of our Savior? And what about the rest of my unsaved aunts and uncles? Will they find their peace in God?

A new song we learned in Choir today brought me so much peace…I cant explain how it worked but it really just reminded me that God is in control of this whole situation. He knows how my Dad feels right now. He knows how the rest of my dad’s siblings feel. He knows how Grandma Mary feels. And He can put me at peace to know that though my Grandpa resisted and will be gone forever, some good can come from this...God is in control, and He knows what He is doing.

Be still, and know I am God. Psalm 46:10


BE STILL
Hide me now under your wings.
Cover me within your Mighty hand.
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God.

Find rest, my soul, in Christ alone.
Know His power, in quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God.