Thursday, September 1, 2011
Headache update
Saturday, August 27, 2011
I'm baaaaaaack!
Saturday, November 7, 2009
On Weddings, and the life thereafter
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WOW! I don't blog enough! Three months since my last update. I am married now as of 16 days ago and loving every minute of it. My wedding was PERFECT and made so by all the people I love who were there supporting me every step of the way.
It's strange, the feeling of comfort, sustainability and consistency. A good kind of strange. I know I am being taken care of, and that he is always going to be there no matter what we go through. He is a righteous Godly man who loves me and loves his God. Everything he does he thinks of me before he does it. I am important to him, AND I LOVE IT!! I cook and clean and make the home comfortable for him, AND I LOVE THAT TOO!! In just two weeks and a couple days I have learned more about him AND more about myself than I ever knew. It's Amazing!
I am going to attend a wedding of a friend from school today. I used to go to weddings feeling anxious and a tiny twinge of jealousy. I wanted to be the one in that white dress making a promise for forever. I was always excited for my friends getting married, but my thoughts wandered off to the future. My mind was on my who when and where. Even when I finally discovered the who the when was always haunting me. I wanted to be his wife so badly, but I knew I had to be patient and wait for the right time...for Gods time!
Now that I have said my vows and began my life with my amazing husband I am going to this wedding 100% joyful and praising God for his goodness. I am so excited for my friend as it will be her turn to wear the white dress and make a forever promise. I am not distracted by feelings of jealousy but rather I am thinking about all the emotions rushing through her head right now. About the adjustment she will be going through (as I am still going through it). About the awkward next couple of days which will be spent learning each others living habits. About how HAPPY they are and are going to be despite what life throws them. I know I am no pro when it comes to married life...Not even close...We're practically still honeymooning. But its a wonder to see this from a different perspective, from this side of the veil, from (barely) experienced eyes. All my best to her and her very soon-to-be husband. I wish them all the best and as much joy, blessings, love happiness as I would wish for my own young marriage
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It was absolutely beautiful and I am so happy for her. I know that she and her husband are going to be so happy and with the support they have behind them in the form of their family and close friends and more importantly their faith in their Savior Jesus Christ as the foundation, they are going to be forever in each other arms and in the deepest kind of love only The True God can give.
Monday, July 27, 2009
Thursday, February 26, 2009
The Desires of My Heart
I desire with everything in me to spend one wonderful lifetime in the arms of my beloved, forever in love and cherishing the miracle God has given me.
I desire so much to be back in the country that my heart breaks for, with the people I have fallen in love with.
I desire 'til the end of my days to make an impact, even if my name is not given credit.
I desire with all my being to keep in touch with and continue to love my family who has shaped me into who I am today.
I desire strongly to become a wise old woman who can teach and train the following generations, and give them the same desires I have been given.
I desire that others may see my desires and let that become my identity. That I may be known by the good I am capable of, not the bad that I unfortunately commit more often.
I desire that the desires of my heart be met and I may live live to fullest as defined by my walk and relationship with my Creator, Savior, Jesus Christ!
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
To Love, and Be Loved!
To look into those deep eyes and read everything he is feeling for me
To read the note written by his hand, expressing all the love he holds in his heart for me
To hear that voice that makes my heart jump when he speaks just a word to me
To know that, though the distance is far, his love stretches and fills the void from him to me
I love him more than words can express, and though it's far, and we have to wait so long, his affection is ever with me and all I can do is dream of his face and wait for the day I see him again!
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Be Still
A new song we learned in Choir today brought me so much peace…I cant explain how it worked but it really just reminded me that God is in control of this whole situation. He knows how my Dad feels right now. He knows how the rest of my dad’s siblings feel. He knows how Grandma Mary feels. And He can put me at peace to know that though my Grandpa resisted and will be gone forever, some good can come from this...God is in control, and He knows what He is doing.
Be still, and know I am God. Psalm 46:10
BE STILL
Hide me now under your wings.
Cover me within your Mighty hand.
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God.
Find rest, my soul, in Christ alone.
Know His power, in quietness and trust
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God.



