Dreaming

I dream of tea parties and little league games. Minivans and birthday parties. A million firsts, and just as many lasts. I dream of being waken up at 3am for a feeding and screaming fits while I'm exhausted. Kissing boo-boos and not-too-serious ER visits. I dream of graduations, drivers licenses and weddings......

After a year and a half of trying with no success I dream of it more and more. All the "inconveniences" and struggles of parenthood. I'd take it all, to feel the hug from someone who belongs to me...I don't even know yet if anything is preventing it, but it sure isn't easy waiting. God, now more than ever I need to be held by you.